Radio silence?
So. There hasn't been an update for a while.
I have been doing some re-thinking about my motivations for scrapbooking. What I enjoy, what I don't, when I produce stuff I like, when I just sit looking at stuff.
Scrapbooking stopped being fun for me, right around September. I realised early on that having too much stuff was causing me issues and I should - I thought - try and use it up. So I started my 100 layouts/no purchases rule and then the blog. It went great at first, I was making pages, using up supplies and blogging it all.
But I still had So.Much.Stuff.
I was sick of it, sick of looking at stickers that I had got in early 2005 and still couldn't think of a use for, sick of having 200 photo corners and 20 different charms related to cats and sick mostly of thinking 'I bought it so I have to use it'. And then doing no pages because I was sick of it.
A couple of weeks ago I thought 'I'm totally blocked and I NEED some inspiration'. I went through all my old copies of CK and similar publications and cut out all the layouts I liked, especially those with products I already had, and glued them on to a4 sheets and filed them. Then I went through all my paper, stickers, embellishments, tools etc and PURGED all the stuff i knew that - as much as I liked it or as long as I'd had it - I really didn't need it. No matter which kit, how much it cost, how far it had travelled if it didn't make me happy anymore I took it out of my stash. I now have a big pile of papers and stickers to give to friends who have started scrapbooking.
I went to ikea and got stuff to re-organise my scrap space. I have been taking the 'Get Organized, Be Inspired' class through BPS and I have the accompanying book. I have been thinking really hard about what I LIKE about scrapbooking. I have felt an enormous pressure since Toby was born to be a 'proper' scrapbooker, noting all details and journalling everything about him, which just isn't me at all. I like being a bit arty and random. I like making 'pretty' pages about not much. I also like really indepth journalling. I like everyday stuff. I like taking a picture at the park and saying 'picture at park' too.
I realised 'not buying' stuff isn't enough. Learning the process of how you scrapbook, learning why you make pages and actually ENJOYING the process of making pages is the only way to fully appreciate the stuff you have bought and to use it effectively.
I realised I had stalled because I didn't have much 'inspirational' product left - and that is part of my process. To love the things and use the things. This works the other way too. You can buy too much and not be inspired. Often this happens when we binge and it gets put away because it is too pretty to use.
I have purged, I have rearranged, I am working on an inspiring space to encompass my crafty, creative side. I have made a list of products that I use a lot and were lacking (and a list that I just don't really use) and - confession time - I made some big purchases. I didn't make it to 100 layouts BUT I did learn a lot about my process and about hoarding product and about inspiration.
I have, in effect, failed. Should I pull the blog down and start a new scrapping blog, afresh? I'm in two minds. But just as my scrap process and everything around it is having a fresh start so I feel my scrap blog, my online scrap presence, should too.
I'll keep you posted.

















